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3rd anniversary

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(Former Ketua Jururawat Hospital Tuanku Jaafar, Seremban)

15.03.1958 – 19.08.2020

 

Susan,
3 years have been passed, and the day you departed became a day not to mourn but a day to cherish the wonders of God.


People say, “Marriages are made in heaven to fulfill purposes.” I believe
that. You entered my life that was in darkness then, led me to church that I abandoned years ago. You renewed, rebuilt my faith in God who became the ‘way, truth and Life’ for me / us.


Then you became ill, became disabled that devastated us both. Our normal life turned topsy-turvy, turbulent. Fears, worries, doubts and anxieties about our future shadowed us.


We had maids, but they left us. We were both retirees, without children. I was in my early 60s and you were in late 50s. So, we sought help; help not from others but from God. We began our prayers devotedly, dedicatedly and passionately. Oh! Changes emerged. Confidence grew and we strode on positively.


Susan, you became my child, my adorable child. And I became your server, your care giver, always on vigil showering you constant love, care, courage and protection. That brought changes in you. What was hell then became heaven to you. Though disabled, your life changed slowly. Worries waned, sadness vanished, doubts dimmed and smile bloomed. Your gloomed face turned shiny. Your life became rosy and cosy. Thank God!


The changes in us surprised many. Praises poured. “Jakob, Susan, you are a shinning, living couple. An amazing, exemplary, extraordinary couple. May God bless you both.” They said. Those constant praises and encouraging words motivated us and we thrived on

energetically & positively.


Then tragedy stroke. On 19th August 2020, you expired. Your departure was sudden, unexpected. Though that withered my soul, my spirit, I accepted your death, as God’s will and started the funeral procedure. You were brought to the parlour. The clean up service started and ended swiftly and smoothly. I was there alone with you praying silently. It was then I noticed a kind of movement in your eyes. Your eyelids moved, then your eyes opened, turned toward me. There was a smile too on your face. Stunned and astounded, I kept staring at you. And you were staring at me. Your eyes were bright and alive, like that of real life person. This lasted a while, then your eyes closed,
but your smile remained. 

Doubts arose in me. Was it real or an imagination? Would anyone believe me if I told as there wasn’t anybody with me when her eyes opened. So I decided to remain mum / silent. I continued my prayers, concluded it then I left the parlour.


The 2nd day I was in the parlour, 2 ladies approached me. In a surprised tone, one said,”Jakob we were here yesterday, praying for peace and rest for her.”Her eyes opened suddenly and she stared at us with the smile. Jakob that’s unbelievable! Amazing!”


So, what I witnessed was not an illusion or imagination but a real incident. Tears burst, I cried. I told them about what I witnessed the previous day. Surprised, they said, “Jakob, you are blessed. It’s a miracle from God for you. Don’t be sad but thank God. Susan is safe in heaven with peace.” They said this, then left.


People say, “After trials and turbulations come peace.” True.


Susan, we did not kow tow or succumbed to those trials and turbulations that engulfed, submerged us but we endured them all with firm faith and trust in God, ‘Jesus Christ’ our Saviour.


Perhaps the faith, trust believe and confidence that we had amidst

 those agonized challenges must have impacted, impressed,

pleased God. Hence He bestowed, blessed us with this amazing,

awesome gift / award.

 

“Peace! Peace! Peace!”

To me Susan, your opened eyes with the smile and then your

prolonged visits with sweet smell till this day are signs / indicators that you are safe in heaven with peace. And to me those two signs have become not boosters to stray from God, but they have become motivators, motivating, enriching, enhancing and deepening my love and faith in God Almighty Holy Trinity Jesus Christ. Amen! Alleluia!


Susan my days are spent now, thinking, thanking, praising, honouring,
glorifying, exalting God, our Wonder! Marvel!, Miracle! And I spent the days too thanking, praising with gratitude:


I) Our beloved Mother Mary, Mother of Perpetual Succour
II) Our beloved Holy Family
III) All our beloved Angels
IV) And all our beloved Saints


who are now have become my strength,

my stronghold and pillars of my life.

 

Susan,


You are an award yourself to me!
Your arrival brought brightness, then.
Now Your departure brought not sadness
But peace, rest and undying love for you!

Thank you and Happy 3rd Anniversary Susan,

God bless you!

 


Forever loved and cherished by:
Beloved husband MA Jakob (Seremban)
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